She dreams of driving across the bridges. She’d never been afraid before; but now, in the dreams, strange, magical happenings unfold. One night, at the Golden Gate, the span carries her underwater, where she discovers long lost friends, all sitting at a beautiful table at the bottom of the Bay; only it was long ago, and everyone is in Victorian dress.

In another dream, the Bridge does not yet exist. Where the beautiful city would appear, there are only sandstone cliffs and desert; and she is just spirit, flying above the water.

But in most of the dreams she is driving. Her eyelids become heavy, she can’t see the road. struggles desperately to keep control of the car, but can feel herself falling, slipping towards the floor, the car breaking over the railing, carrying her with it under the water.

The dreams recur so often that she becomes afraid of heights, of driving over the railing into the waves. Then just as suddenly the dreams stop. Years pass, until the day she hears that he’s jumped, when they return.

In this memoir we accompany the author on her search to unearth the magical and terrifying childhood she has all but buried.

Kristen Alexandra grew up in a suburb in the San Gabriel Valley of Southern California, near the Sierra Madre Mountains. She holds a master’s degree in early childhood education and has worked in both private/home settings as a nanny and also in elementary school settings as a teacher and teaching assistant. Prior to that, while raising her daughter as a single mother, she worked in the historic fine art photography galleries in Carmel, California, representing the work of some of the main artists in the field—Ansel Adams, Edward and Brett Weston, Imogen Cunningham, and other more contemporary artists. She now lives in southern Marin County, California, where she enjoys exploring beautiful hiking trails and spending time near the water.